“But by the grace of God I am what I am…”
~1 Corinthians 15:10
“This isn’t who I created you to be,” God admonished me. “You are living a lie.”
I hung my head because I knew the words He spoke were true. “I’m sorry,” I said. “What can I do to get back to my authentic self?” I asked.
“Two questions,” He replied.
“What’s that? Two questions?” I asked incredulously. I thought it would be a harder task than just answering two questions.
“That’s right, just two questions,” God assured me. “Ready to hear them?”
“The first is, ‘What’s true for me?” and the second is ‘What do I really want?”
“Really? Those seem rather…” I paused, searching for the right word, “simple.”
God laughed. “Simple they are indeed, but not always easy to answer or to live.”
“I’ll ponder them later today,” I said, “When I am out in my garden.”
“It’s a good idea to ponder them every day to make sure that you are being true to yourself,” God suggested.
And so I went out into the garden and I wrote down what was true for me. Some of the things on my list surprised me. Then I wrote down the things that I really, really, wanted. Again, some of my entries surprised me. I saw how far off the mark I had gotten by being so busy and in a hurry. I saw how far off center my life had been pulled.
“Thank you, God,” I whispered. I felt God’s gentle hand on my shoulder as a breeze lifted my hair. “No more living a lie. I’ll do my best to be who you created me to be.”
I could feel God’s smile as I sat in the mid-day sun, among His beautiful flowers. I felt whole again. Happy. Contented. Totally at peace.
“I have made the earth, and created man upon it: my hands, have stretched
out the heavens, and all their host have I commanded.”
I met a man that I thought could possibly be “the one.” So many things about him resonated with me. After a few dates, I was caught in the throes of infatuation. Everything about him felt incredible to me. My thoughts returned to him often throughout the day. The only problem was he didn’t have the same feelings for me. I was sad when I finally came to the realization that “He’s just not that into me.” I called a good friend of mine and shared my disappointment.
“Can you trust that God is managing all of the complexities of the universe in your favor?” he asked.
“Of course, ” I replied.
“Then you can trust that this man’s feelings are part of the grand plan God has for your life. If this guy isn’t the one for you, God is sparing you from an ultimate heartache. If this man isn’t the one for you, God will introduce you to the one who is,” he reassured me. “If God can create the heavens and the earth, and hold together the universe, think how easy it is for Him to orchestrate your life,” he reminded me.
My friend’s words of wisdom were so encouraging, I am sharing them here with you. God is managing all of the complexities of the universe in your favor. No matter what is happening in your life, God is there with you. He’s got you in His strong and good hands. If the outcome to a situation isn’t what you want or expected, trust that God will turn it into good for you. He’s conspiring for your happiness. All you have to do is to get out of His way! Let go. Let God. It’s all going to work out in your favor.